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Well, I like darn near all your writing, so either I have no taste or you are being more than a little hard on yourself. If you think my writing/critiques are any good, then consider the source. Likewise if you think my writing sucks. Hope to see you again on Tuesday.
]]>like any other arts-based career, the answer is your own particular calculus of yourself-and-your-own-expectations played against everyone-else-and-their-expectations and balanced by the depth and breadth of your talent. am i the capital-a-artist who capital-c-creates the work and puts it forth pure and whole for a world (never mind whether they get it), or maybe the steady jobber who makes some money off of the craft of writing, cashing checks for a few hundred here and there from small-circulation magazines printed on inferior paper with pixelated images, or the genius whose work is discovered by a landlady cleaning out the detritus of dead genius’s room, or a successful whiz at some genre fiction that you dislike just enough to see clearly the formula for … and so on.
and it’s rarely so clean. you give a little here, you hold out there. how much should you listen to other people, how much should you change your work, how closely should you hew to your own ideas?
you have to decide who you’re writing for, then let that answer determine whether you’ve any reasons to write at all. maybe your particular outlet of creative expression isn’t through writing. it’s certainly possible. but maybe it is and you’re just going through the hard times of a person who’s used to being quickly more-than-competent at most anything you take up, only now you’re up against something that’s a real challenge.
it is not a trait exclusive to southerners, but as a mississippian i cannot but admire people who stick with a thing–job, place, or person–through thick and thin. like hopkins–“sheer plod makes plough down sillion shine”–i find truth and beauty can come from the meanest of places and methods. anyway, i hope you figure it out.
]]>"Not good enough"? For whom? Or what? And why? Because it’s not perfect? (Not a perfectionist, my eye.) You’ve got yourself all tangled up in expectations of greatness. Get out of your own damn way and just write. I’ve read some of your stuff. It IS good enough. It is also unconventional, which makes it harder to place. Especially if you don’t send it out.
Re: rejection. Get more. Get used to it. It generally has nothing to do with the quality of your work. I have a picture book manuscript that has been praised not just by critique groups, but by agents and editors as well. Yet it has been rejected 21 times. So far. (Thanks for reminding me I need to send it somewhere new.) Meanwhile, I’ve sold 4 books, 3 short stories, and an essay. They are nowhere near perfect, but they are good enough. A lot of your stuff is better than a lot of my stuff, and you know it.
You can’t know whether something’s good enough until you FINISH it. Until then, it’s only a draft. Go read _Bird by Bird_ by Annie Lamott. Then get back to work.
Hugs and kisses ;-)
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