Catastrophe.

Yesterday morning my iBook hard drive started crashing. By yesterday afternoon it would not boot. This is a catastrophe of such magnitude to me that I cannot even begin to describe it. I am completely, utterly dependent on this little machine, and of course I had no adequate backup system in place. I have never had a massive hard drive crash before, and my iBook was so reliable in every way that I honestly failed to envision such a thing ever happening. I realize this is all my fault. That knowledge helps me not at all, nor does it bring me even the smallest bit of comfort. I am so completely lost without the stuff on my iBook that I find it difficult to even write about it. The only reason I’m saying something here is because I don’t want everyone I know to think I’ve suddenly gone insane or turned into a complete bitch or fallen off the face of the earth. Please don’t talk to me, please don’t look at me, please don’t tell me you sympathize. I am crushed. I don’t know how long it will be before I am not crushed. I will resurface when I don’t feel so completely shitty.